Whatever you do in life will be insignificant, but it's very important that you do it. Because nobody else will. Like when someone comes into your life and half of you says you're nowhere near ready, but the other half says: make her yours forever.

"For what it's worth: it's never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There's no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you're proud of. If you find that you're not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again."

For No Other Reason But,

   "Why do you want to climb Mount Everest?"

"Because it's there."

Aron Ralston

"You know, I’ve been thinking. Everything is… just comes together. It’s me. I chose this. I chose all this. This rock… this rock has been waiting for me my entire life. It’s entire life, ever since it was a bit of meteorite a million, billion years ago. In space. It’s been waiting, to come here. Right, right here. I’ve been moving towards it my entire life. The minute I was born, every breath that I’ve taken, every action has been leading me to this crack on the out surface."

This Land

Sometimes adventure is inconspicuous, it doesn't always look like a movie, so perfectly sequenced. Sometimes adventure is a day to day thing...waking up every morning just to see how the hills look, realizing that U-turns are your best friend when you are learning your way around a new town, even trying to grasp every day that there is a tiny human growing inside of your sister (no matter how many times I say it, it just isn't real) Yes, sometimes adventure is enough of just watching, absorbing and understanding the environment in which you are placed.

I knew that I could become okay with driving thirty minutes and paying five dollars in tolls every work day when I drove over the hill down into Newport Beach. It was such a clear day that I could see more Sea than I could city. With the Sun reflecting on the Ocean, the entire body of water looked like frost; completely white. And the best thing is to smell the salt in the air, especially when you are taking Pacific Coast Highway home. By far the best part of the Highway is this one little spot where the road curves so drastically inland, you think you will be forced to go off-road and end up with all four wheels locked in the sand on the coast. Before I leave, I want to travel north on PCH as the sun goes down on the ocean. I so quickly decided this when I caught a glimpse in my side view mirror of the beautiful golden hills behind me. This was before I got home and sprinted into my sisters apartment from the parking lot; which was right before Santa's dog started chasing me... There is nothing like living among a place with such great scenery as this. It makes you want to run and run and run, just to know you are getting somewhere. Walking is nice too.

Needless to say, I am embracing my location. I've learned just how much my friends really care about me, and I am so thankful. The temperature is perfect, the air smells sweet, and there is always an giant body of water close by. The spur of the moments thoughts have become the expected, as the planned has only become something that I try to ignore having to readjust myself to in a few months. I feel as if I am on the first leg of my race, I know that me being here has been so perfectly planned for me and I can't wait to see how it will prepare me.

Youthhood

   I have walked for eighteen short years on this land. I have come across many great souls, and of  those I have met thus far, three individuals stick out to me in a special way. The first, I have known for sixteen years. He shares my own flesh and blood. He has spend countless road trips to Wyoming with me. He has played such a monumental part in my becoming. We came from playing Lego Racing on the Nintendo 64, to The Oak Club and challenging the neighbors Chihuahua, to Capital Cove. You can truly see his heart when he sings. His voice isn't perfect, it cracks and it's not always smooth, but it may be the most beautiful voice I have yet to hear. It's honest. We can entertain ourselves for hours on end with childish games we invented in our own minds. It is safe to proclaim that we have a unique loyalty to each other. No matter where I go, he will always have a place in my life. The second, she is my best girl friend. The countless memories we have spent together hold some of the truest joy I have yet to experience. She is a girl that I don't have to hold conversation with. We can drive around for thirty minutes and not speak a word. Maybe that is because we spend more time together and any new events in our life don't have time to keep up. Or maybe it is because we chose to entertain ourselves with discovering age defying creek mud and making forts. Most of the time our deepest conversations happen in the evening, when we have bottles of Cream Soda and her beautiful backyard. My relationship with this beautiful girl has taught me something so significant. Tension arises quite regularly when you spend so much time with one person, and even though we consistently know of this unspoken tension between us, she continues to love me, and me, her. And not just after we have spoken our condolences, but in the midst of the discomfort. This last individual...I do not even know where to begin. His patience and gentleness amazes me. You could steal this mans money and kick his horse when it's down and somehow his kind heart would come back around to you. He laughs at virtually everything containing the slightest hint of humor. He works mostly on logic, for this I have the most respect for him. He knows what he has to do and he can carry it out positively. It is hardest for me to explain him, something I discovered only as I have typed this sentence.

  While these three individuals have such strong and independent qualities, something remarkable happens when we come together. I am truly thankful for you, for the beautiful, simple, wholesome and satisfying moments you all have given me. I could never scream Manchester songs, trek through forests or listen to some great live musicians with the same amount of gratification if I were with anyone else. I have received the purest joy from our friendship and can only continue to be more blessed through you. There is nothing like you, like the chemistry that occurs when we come together. Nothing like watching Big Fish and then racing out the door and across the lawn at night. And no matter where we go, no matter what kind of path we are sent down, I can say with confidence, I will always love you.